D. J. :
She’s a beautifully plain girl who daydreams nightly about a life she’ll never lead.
God, laughter, music, friends, marshmallows, lollipops, mochi and bread are some things that make up her everything. (:
a bundle of topsy-turvy contradictions, she loves every merry minute of her singlehood. (:
also, someone once told her our prayers were like our love letters to God. so here they are. (:

Wishes for never-ending laughter &for forever to meet no end.

Let's sing You a love song for i'm coming back to the Heart of Worship, where it's all about You.

DANIELLE. DANNY. FENG SHUI. FION. INEZ. TINGJUN.

Lovedrops♥
x x x x

i have moved to www.thefourteenthstreet.wordpress.com 'til further notice. (:

blogger's been messing around with me lately so i think this post might turn out looking a teensy bit weird, and very plain. =/
(turns out it's SLIGHTLY better with my dad's com)

oh wells, just got back from hanging arnd with dahh. i managed to read like, one slide and she.. well, not sure what she got done. x) darn full! ate waffles after macs even though i was already quite full. *sighs* and and.. why can't convenient locations sell the contacts solution i want? x.x

i'm really tempted to skip soc day and coms tmr especially since i've like, no more mood to study since thr's only a few lessons to the end of term. boring lessons gives me quite alot of thinking time which even doodling and randomly jotting song lyrics down helps not at all to fill up the silence.

i should come up with an exercise regime and stick to it! maybe lack of exercise is what's been making me feel so lethargic recently. o:

LOL. i've been like, meeting parallel people lately.
he really reminds me of my bro, the way they both speak to me as if i'm a 3year old (that's putting it nicely), gives the same sort of expression and etc.
he reminds me of someone i've never met, but if i ever meet him he might turn out to be like that. not making much sense. x)
oh i forgot about the show thingy too. heh.

saw my uncle jogging somewhere really far from his house while i was on the bus! *pei fu*
perhaps i should get a pair of glasses just for astig. it's weird sitting in lectures and having your instructors blur up in front of you. -.-
really really hope that fairprice'll stock up on apples soon. i really really miss them. ;(
my addiction for this week is egg sandwich. LOL. bread doesn't really count since i eat bread everyday anyway.
i need a job! like, part time one. i don't think i'm very fussy with regards to what it'll be..

my phone needs charging. and my prepaid needs paying.


going off on tangents.-


i should go get some work done.




, (:

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most misunderstandings arose due to the fact that certain people don't listen completely when i talk. seriously, its like the whole radio ad thing where they do selective listening, and tune out completely for the rest of the conversation. the end result is this mesh of accusations which leaves me confused and in a whole lot of trouble. there's no point in justifying myself, because everything i say will just be seen as made up excuses to get myself out of whatever situation i'm in.

to save myelf, i won't bother speaking unless i have no choice.



moving on to happier things. (:
-holidays are coming!
-went for the Da Vinci exhibit @ long long last (:
-watched HP. [well, the show would've been more enjoyable if certain people showed a little movie etiquette.]



*sighs* homework is piling up and i have no motivation. x:
actually, i don't really know how to do it. what the tian is objective function &linear programming?! i'm sure the cher did not mention this in class at all, o.o"

&i find watermelon milkshake nice. (:

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life sucks when your mum's been poisoning your dad's mind against you. aka sabo-ing

seriously, for a supposedly "objective" person, he is annoyingly biased.

sure, my attitude is lousy (this i agree. i do have this itsy bitsy rebellious streak that resulted from constant repression.);
sure, my bro's "over-pampering" me (trust me, this is WAY untrue. he's just nicer than usual when my parents are around. -.-) ;
sure, i'm being what, girly?! (since when is that a crime? &btw, in case no one has noticed, i am a girl. >.<>

1. i strongly detest being accused of something i didn't do/say.
2. fine, i might have done/said it, but the version he has is so obscenely distorted.
3. and since there is that slight truth to it, i can't completely deny it either.
4. then again, what's the point of arguing when i can't win?
5. everything boils down to: respect. "i'm your *inserts parental figure here*"

whatever.
it's getting harder and harder so i'm just starting to ignore. i used to love it when my dad gets home coz my mum gets really *censored* when my dad's away. but now my dad's being a right *censored* towards me and it gets awfully tiring.
there's like, this gradual mental erosion that's ever so wearing.

there's one other thing i don't really understand either.
how does "you're in uni now, that means you're an adult/mature"
equate with
"no you're only 17, you're not allowed to stay out too late/stay over/ go out"?
thank goodness i don't really like to go out.. much.

dang my hopeless optimism that things will be different each time i ask &dang my conscience.

i need someone to talk to. rahhs. (here's when i go back to missing *inserts name here* .)

does anyone want to move out with me or let me move in with them when i'm like, i dunno, legal?

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i've been so busy lazy cranky sleepy -- well, generally in too much of a 'can't be bothered' mood to update about my life.

so i suppose this blog got rather stagnant ever since i started my first semester at uni.

UNI.

gosh, it seemed like forever away. being a one step at a time sort of person, it seemed almost an entire flight of stairs away.
yet here i am now.


felt slightly nostalgic for some time.
not exactly for my secondary school days or anything (though i do miss it) but perhaps for a time i didn't appreciate enough or perhaps took for granted.
so when it suddenly hit me that i've lost something that i'll perhaps never have again, or even if i do, for that short moment have the privvy to, *shrugs* have another chance (?), it'll never be the same.
heck.
it is no longer the same.
well, to me, that is.

i'm not one for regrets.
i'll live with the choices i've made, whether or not the outcome has been desirable. i mean, since i don't have a time machine, there's nothing i can do about it anymore, so why not just deal with it? it's so much easier than slowly drowning in a pool of 'what ifs' and 'if onlys'.


well, i've since learnt to move on; to let go. (:
perhaps what i've missed wasn't you, per se, but more of your constant presence.
but i'm fine now, at least for the moment.
sure, sometimes my heart feels as if it's playing heavy metal in my chest,
but i'll move on again.

thank you for everything you have given me. (:
&i'll miss you,


life can be a myriad of colours if only you knew where to look;




&here i finish another subchapter in my life.

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